The feelings you have, they come in waves don’t they?  One minute you’ll be fine and then you see something or remember something and you begin to unravel.  It happens to me too.  I know you quickly scramble to collect yourself, so worried of what people might think.  But sometimes the bravest thing you can do is feel and be seen.  So, let yourself unravel. You are not alone. -  @jessicaolie     In  my usual seasonal cycle April is always the hardest month for me.  Something about the end of winter and the coming of spring stirs up all  my emotions like clockwork every year. This year though, I thought I  could outrun it. I thought leaving the cold cloudy days of NYC for  bright blue skies and warm weather in LA would magically make it  disappear. But, it’s stronger than ever.   I think that’s the  thing about moving to new cities, you can leave everything behind but  you can’t leave what’s inside of you. That comes with you wherever you  go. And the more you try to abandon it, the more it screams to be heard.     I’ve been struggling with what to share lately thinking I  must sound too moody, not funny enough or positive enough like I usually  am. But I’ve never been able to hide what I’m feeling. Never been able  to fake it. So I’m allowing myself to feel and be seen.

The feelings you have, they come in waves don’t they?
One minute you’ll be fine and then you see something or remember something and you begin to unravel.
It happens to me too.
I know you quickly scramble to collect yourself, so worried of what people might think.
But sometimes the bravest thing you can do is feel and be seen.
So, let yourself unravel.
You are not alone. - @jessicaolie

In my usual seasonal cycle April is always the hardest month for me. Something about the end of winter and the coming of spring stirs up all my emotions like clockwork every year. This year though, I thought I could outrun it. I thought leaving the cold cloudy days of NYC for bright blue skies and warm weather in LA would magically make it disappear. But, it’s stronger than ever.

I think that’s the thing about moving to new cities, you can leave everything behind but you can’t leave what’s inside of you. That comes with you wherever you go. And the more you try to abandon it, the more it screams to be heard.

I’ve been struggling with what to share lately thinking I must sound too moody, not funny enough or positive enough like I usually am. But I’ve never been able to hide what I’m feeling. Never been able to fake it. So I’m allowing myself to feel and be seen.

Life by Design was born out of a need for my own self-healing after decades of unresolved illness. It wasn’t until finding the courage to look within that I discovered it was my own belief system holding me back from experiencing a truly thriving life. We all have access to that thriving life. We just need to rediscover our power and ignite the healing-self. Only then can we unapologetically live a life by our own design.