“You know you are truly alive when you’re living among lions.” - Karen Blixen
Things have really shifted for me this week. As the year comes to a close I narrowed my vision and focused in on that clock turning 2019. I know people knock the fact that it’s just a calendar date but New Year’s Eve has always been my favorite holiday. It’s the perfect balance between endings and beginnings. It’s a chance to reflect and reset. It’s also a chance to get dressed up and celebrate. The way life should be lived.
I stepped into more of what most would call a masculine energy though. I got relentless about getting my to-do list checked off. Tying up loose ends. Realigning with my goals and setting intentions for the year to come. I even took most of this past weekend to eliminate distractions, clear my social calendar, and sit down with myself to get really clear on what’s next. I’ve done this ritual the past few years and it’s been enormous for my growth. That being said, by Sunday morning I started to feel a little off. Ok, I started to feel anxious as hell.
It took a lot of living to realize my true essence is quite feminine. Sure, yea, I’m a female. But I always thought feminine meant pretty pink sweaters, Barbies and…weakness. And I always hated all of those things, deeply. It wasn’t until recently that I learned true feminine energy is intuitive, curious, calm, emotional, empathetic, and compassionate. It’s also wild. It doesn’t walk a straight line and is full of bends, curves, and spontaneity. It’s feeling over thinking. Being instead of doing. Dancing, playing, loving, and most importantly; creating.
When integrating this passion with the masculine energy of purpose, it’s power.
We all have both polarities within us. Like anything, the trick is knowing when to shift into one state and out of the other. It’s also sensing how long to stay there and to what degree. The best way to successfully do any of those things is to intimately (and bravely) know yourself.
So this week, and the following weeks through the holidays, I’m coming back to her. Like the lioness, she knows when to hunt and when to nurture. She is both fierce and soft. Truly, fully alive.
Life by Design was born out of a need for my own self-healing after decades of unresolved illness. It wasn’t until finding the courage to look within that I discovered it was my own belief system holding me back from experiencing a truly thriving life. We all have access to that thriving life. We just need to rediscover our power and ignite the healing-self. Only then can we unapologetically live a life by our own design.