Alright, real talk. Maybe I’m a little late to the party but I’ve been avoiding the traditional New Year’s resolution and/or recap post. For one, I don’t think I can recap my year as eloquently as I’ve seen many others do. It’s been both one of the best and worst years of my life. Like having my foot on the gas and brake at the same time, moving forward but with more heaviness and resistance than anticipated. It was a year of clearing. Burning the old to make way for the new. But with that destruction also comes grief for what could have been. Choices and paths I chose not to walk, and the ones I decided to discontinue walking.  What I do know is I reinvented myself. Again. Which I initially tried to fight because prior years of reinvention looked like throwing everything at the wall and starting all over again. This year I learned that reinvention doesn’t have to play by the “New Year, New Me” motto. It can look more like integration. Discovering the parts of you that can’t be discarded no matter how many times you move to a new city and cut your hair short.  Reinvention is reintegration. It’s just discovering a piece of you that’s been there all along and reconnecting the cables. With those connections comes a new form, capable of things the last one wasn’t, and the expansive cycle continues.  It’s the basis for all creativity.  So this year, with this new form, my intention is to create. I’m still moving to a new city (and will probably cut my hair short again in an impromptu moment of compulsion - maybe even a new tattoo if things stay the course), but I’m taking my foot off the brake and giving myself permission to take all of me there this time. My whole self. The self that I’m continually creating, as many cycles as it may take.  2019, let’s go another round. 🌹

Alright, real talk. Maybe I’m a little late to the party but I’ve been avoiding the traditional New Year’s resolution and/or recap post. For one, I don’t think I can recap my year as eloquently as I’ve seen many others do. It’s been both one of the best and worst years of my life. Like having my foot on the gas and brake at the same time, moving forward but with more heaviness and resistance than anticipated. It was a year of clearing. Burning the old to make way for the new. But with that destruction also comes grief for what could have been. Choices and paths I chose not to walk, and the ones I decided to discontinue walking.

What I do know is I reinvented myself. Again. Which I initially tried to fight because prior years of reinvention looked like throwing everything at the wall and starting all over again. This year I learned that reinvention doesn’t have to play by the “New Year, New Me” motto. It can look more like integration. Discovering the parts of you that can’t be discarded no matter how many times you move to a new city and cut your hair short.

Reinvention is reintegration. It’s just discovering a piece of you that’s been there all along and reconnecting the cables. With those connections comes a new form, capable of things the last one wasn’t, and the expansive cycle continues.

It’s the basis for all creativity.

So this year, with this new form, my intention is to create. I’m still moving to a new city (and will probably cut my hair short again in an impromptu moment of compulsion - maybe even a new tattoo if things stay the course), but I’m taking my foot off the brake and giving myself permission to take all of me there this time. My whole self. The self that I’m continually creating, as many cycles as it may take.

2019, let’s go another round. 🌹

Life by Design was born out of a need for my own self-healing after decades of unresolved illness. It wasn’t until finding the courage to look within that I discovered it was my own belief system holding me back from experiencing a truly thriving life. We all have access to that thriving life. We just need to rediscover our power and ignite the healing-self. Only then can we unapologetically live a life by our own design.